It's with a heavy heart that I have decided to close The Pine Valley Bulletin. Yes, the show was canceled back in April. Yes, it last aired September 23. But still I haven't closed the site. The show lingered on as fans waited to see if there would be an 11th hour save, and were jerked around quite a bit in the process! And when the save didn't happen, we commiserated our disappointment.
I've tried my best to hold on. Soap fans are nothing if not loyal, and now, I feel a bit like a traitor. But I have to do what I feel in my heart is the right thing
for me. And letting it go is the right thing for me. And then, as of late, each and every time I came close to articulating it, something bizarrely
AMC would happen. I was getting ready to write this post last week
when a friend told me she got me the autograph of one of my fave stars
from the show, Darnell Williams. Jesse Hubbard! Seriously, he's one
of the main reasons I started watching AMC in the first place way back
when. And so I put my thoughts on the back burner, again. And yesterday,
as I sat down to write this again, what do I find in my mailbox
delivered via Priority Mail? A copy of People Magazine's commemorative
AMC hardcover issue signed by none other than Susan Lucci! So it keeps
feeling like the forces of nature are telling me not to let it go. How
does that keep happening? But when that bit of excitement about the latest
autograph or bit of news or whatever fades, I still
feel like it's the right time to move on.
I'm blessed. Truly. So very blessed. AMC has done wonderful things
for me. I've had so many adventures. I've met so many people.... both
of the celeb variety and fellow fans. I've made lifelong friends
because of AMC. I've met people who I never ever would have met if we
didn't have AMC in common. I've received cards, letters, gifts, and
countless words of encouragement and support through the years. When my
dad was sick, AMC fans were there for me. When my Grandma died, you
were there for me again. You have always cared and been supportive.
Yes, when I look back on my time as a Pine Valley Diva I can honestly
say it has been a blessing to me.
So how does one walk away from it? Believe me, I've grappled with that
thought for months. Can I do it? Can I walk away? Can I end a part of
my life that has all at the same time given me joy, heartache and a
weird level of fame? And the answer is always yes - now is the time to move on. Because my heart tells me that there is something else on the horizon that will bless me with all the things my AMC site has in the past. Maybe it's the
book so many have been encouraging me to write. Maybe it's just living
my life and being who I am. Whatever it is, I can't wait to find out!
Thank you, thank you all so much for 13 amazing years with the PVB. And thank you AMC, for 41 amazing years. This site will remain online as a history source for the show, although I will no longer be posting on it. As for the message boards, they will remain open indefinitely. xoxo